the endless search
tsewei | August 15, 2007I’m in a limbo sort of phase right now.
Feels great to have graduated. No school, lots of time to just hang around, catch up on some regular reading (had no English books for 3 months in Japan), watch TV, go out with friends, get some exercise before the Coming of the Haze. Heck, I even had the time to spring clean my room AND my wardrobe.
But I also feel a little restless at the same time. Sucks having to wait around for a job, not knowing when your search will end - 2 weeks? 2 months? I know everyone’s always complaining about the working life doldrum, but seriously I can’t wait to start. I just wish to have the certainty of a future and wake up knowing what I’m gonna be doing for the next week, and not looking at irrelevant job matchings provided by the various jobsites and going ‘ugh’. Being paid is a bonus motivating force too - doubt I can survive too long with whatever’s left in my account and I don’t really want to dip into my savings in Malaysia just yet.
Anyways, I just attended 2 interviews yesterday, and there’s another 2 later. Yup, interview marathon it is. Tiring, having to run around one interview after another, but the good thing is, at least I will get to consider any offers given at around the same time, so I won’t have to go through the “omg I should have given up that job for this better job” mental torment.
I so despise wearing formal, not because of the look, I like that really. But it’s just too freaking hot out there. Once I get off the bus/MRT, and walk in the afternoon sun searching for the office, within 2 minutes I can feel sweat forming on my skin and my make-up ready to melt. gross.
On other job-search related matters - I do so despise misguiding reports in the papers and all about how great the job market is for graduates and etc. I think sometimes it really does give people false hopes and expectations. I’ve only been searching for 3 weeks so I have nothing to complain. But I know of people who have been searching for months and still are doing so now.
And let’s not even go to the “<insert university name> graduates earn an average of <insert ludicrous amount>” reports. Somewhere out there, some young ciku freshman is all happy of a rose-tinted future that does not exist (ok, unless the person scores uber top grades in engineering/accountancy/business). I believe the CS (Communication Studies not Counter Strike) cohort are single-handedly responsible for pulling down the ‘average pay’ statistics to a lesser and saner number (though still ludicrous - cos we’re too small a cohort to make significant statistical impact).
In any case, I’m glad for my situation I suppose. At least there’s been a couple of interviews, so hopefully there will be good outcomes from them. Just gotta start somewhere and work my way through. Crossing my fingers, and hoping for the best! 
